Sunday, December 10, 2006
"Love is what we are born with. Hate is what we learn."
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Sunday, December 10, 2006|
Monday, March 27, 2006
One Way Out
It's a long lone journey.
Walking down this dark dank street.
A route known by heart,
But never wanted to travel down.
So dark, so cold,
A chill that settles into these very bones.
The night air is thin and stale.
Footsteps slapping against the uneven pavement,
The only sounds being emitted
For the birds are silent
And not even the crickets are chirping.
Some where down this path,
Lights shine.
Some blinding, others so dim
That they barely cast a shadow.
Bright amber, dim fluorescent lights,
Dazzling and seductive neon
Deceptively weak golden.
Which one is it?
Wanting a way out,
Of this hell hole.
I stumbled after those lights
In search of salvation.
Only to be beaten back
Even further into
This spirit devouring darkness.
Will I ever find the real light?
The one that will lead me
Outta this graveyard of hopes.
Reaching life's journey end,
Thinking salvation has,
At long last arrived,
Only to be thrown into despair and chaos.
Blown about by the wind,
The flower is ripped apart
By a tornado whipped up
By well-meaning people.
Where is the way to light?
Never thought I'd be able to find You
Till He showed the way,
Through the Calvary.
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Monday, March 27, 2006|
No Fool
Running around like a crazy fool.
Lovesick fool.
Jumping through hoops
And leaping over huddles.
Braving snow and hail.
All cuz of this love.
Never mind the heart's aches
At seeing another in your embrace.
Cuz I believe that time,
Will prove these feelings of mine.
Trying not to be hurt,
By your pretense,
Your ever-seeing,
But never acknowledging heart.
Cuz, of this little hope,
That, someday,
You'll acknowledge and
Accept this love.
Waiting.
Waiting.
Been waiting so long.
So bruised and battered
By your refusal to acknowledge.
Gave so much
Till there's none left
'Cept for this hollow being.
The wise should have
Given up, long ago.
But, no one,
Has ever called me wise.
The whole world is calling,
For this to be stopped,
For you to be dropped.
But every thing in this heart rebels.
Refuse to believe that
You'd be so hard-hearted.
Unable to give up,
Unable to account for
All the love given,
Hopes dashed,
Time spent waiting.
Unwilling to let go,
And be a fool,
For holding on so long.
Really wanna spend this life with you,
Loving you with all my being,
Till death do us apart.
But, love, I know,
Can't be forced.
So, let us go,
Our own way...
Just let me love you,
Forever.
From a distance...
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Monday, March 27, 2006|
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Breakthrough
Have you ever done many things,
But felt like you had done nothing at all?
This constant buzz and buss,
Is draining me dry.
Sick and weary to the bone.
Wanna leave it all behind.
Spread my wings
And take to the sky.
I’m tired.
Tired of it all.
Tired of watching the crowd
Come and go.
And the world
Passing me by.
Even birds of the heavens
Can fly wherever they want.
So why am I stranded in this place?
I wanna fly.
Fly to the skies,
On wings of hopes,
To find my dreams.
As the door of this cage opens,
A sliver of golden light spills in.
I can see the silver lining of the clouds.
Freedom is in the air,
I can taste it on my lips.
Would you take my hand?
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Thursday, March 02, 2006|
Saturday, August 27, 2005
In this world, of so many people,
It is hard to find my own place.
There are so many wonderful people around
That I feel kinda small and insignificant.
Do I matter?
Who would mourn if I am gone?
I am just a normal girl,
With the usual dreams and girly fantasies.
I am not quiet and gentle
Like the pretty and soft-spoken girl
Across the street.
I am not active and sporty
Like the all-rounder athletic
In my class.
I am not smart and articulate
Like the top-scorer of the school.
I am not well-behaved
Like the little girl with doe-like eyes
I am not endowed
With beauty or brains
Or a gentle and beautiful personality.
Despite all these,
I am just a normal girl,
With the usual dreams and girly fantasies.
I have a heart that can be broken.
I want to be loved and cherished.
Be well-liked by those
Whom I care for very much.
I want to be like Cinderella
Who met her Prince Charming in the ball
And married him, living happily ever after.
I am just a normal girl,
With the usual dreams and girly fantasies.
Please don't break my heart.
I will cry.
In this world, of so many people,
It is hard to find my own place.
There are so many wonderful people around
That I feel kinda small and insignificant
Like the ugly little duckling
That bloomed into a magnificent swan
When spring arrived.
And the crescent moon
That turns full and beautiful
Giving off a graceful and gentle light
I wish to be like that too.
Bloom and blossom.I
am just a normal girl,
With the usual dreams and girly fantasies.
I may not look like it
But I have a very fragile heart.
So please cherish me
And take care of this fragile heart of mine.
If you don't love me
Please don't play with my heart.
I am just a normal girl,
With the usual dreams and girly fantasies.
I may not look like it
But I am very fragile at heart.
This heart of mineI give unto your hands,
Please don't shatter it,
For I am just a normal girl,
With the usual dreams and girly fantasies.
I will cry.
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Saturday, August 27, 2005|
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
What is this feeling inside of me?
Why is my heart going on overdrive?
And my face red, like a tomato?
Boy, you’ve got my signals all mixed up.
Is this love? I wonder.
All the signs are there.
I wanna help fulfil all your dreams
And remain by your side till the end of time.
Is this love?
Cuz all the signs are there
Boy, I’ve had this feeling for so long.
That I really don’t wanna give up on you.
Cuz I wanna wait for the day
When you will turn to me
And say “I love you”.
Is this love?
I am not sure, but all the signs are there. (I think).
Am I living in a dream
That will never come true?
Or in denial?
The feelings have been there for so long.
What is there left,
When I surrender?
I don’t mind the time spent
And feelings given away
But one thing I can’t bear
Is realizing that
My feelings for you
Are not what I had thought them to be
Cuz I can’t bear to give you up.
Cuz I can’t bear to lead you on.
Tell me…anyone…
Tell me.
Is this love?
Cuz all the signs are there.
Please tell me that it is
For I can’t bear it if it aint
Tell me. Tell me.
Please tell me.
Tell me. Tell me.
Please tell me.
Please tell me the truth.
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Wednesday, August 10, 2005|
Friday, July 22, 2005
In the silence of the night
While everyone is
Either sleeping,
Drinking the night away,
Working, studying
Or immersed in the virtual world
Called the ‘Internet’.
I know, I should be a good girl
And go to bed.
But, I just can’t.
An indescribable feeling
Is gnawing at me
I am feeling so lost
So lost.
Where am I? Where am I??
Is there anyone around
In this silent night
To give me directions
To point me in the way to go?
So lost. So lost.
I’m so tired,
That I wanna sleep forever
Like the Sleeping Beauty
Only that I don’t wanna be waken up.
Let me stay like this forever.
The world is spinning,
And everyone with her.
But not me.
I am left out of the turns.
Is there no one out there?
Am I alone?
Dancing to my own tune?
What do you want?
What do you want?
What do you want?
The world asks me.
I don’t know.
I am lost and confused.
In need of a direction post.
I am tired and drained.
I wanna sleep forever, be in your arms forever.
I keep hoping and hoping.
I keep dreaming and dreaming.
What do I hope for?
I don’t know.
What do I dream of?
I had forgotten.
What do you call hopes
That are never realised?
And dreams that are never fulfilled?
Hopelessness.
Wishful thinking.
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Friday, July 22, 2005|
Friday, June 24, 2005
I can see your face
So clearly.
As though you are right beside me.
From your shaped brows,
To your expressive oval eyes,
Your sculpted nose,
High cheekbones, soft skin,
Firm lips
And to your strong jaw.
All these are so clear to me.
So clear, so clear.
It is as though you are right beside me.
No matter what you do
Or do not do,
You drew my attention
And captured my heart.
My eyes can not
And does not want to look away.
When you are near,
Everything seems alright
I am excited,
My heart thumps.
When you are away,
I think of you
Wondered what you are doing
If you think of me,
The way I of you
I wondered if you are happy,
If you are safe
I want to protect your world
Keep you safe from harm,
I want to realize your dreams
Every thing for you.
Any thing for you.
People tell me,
This is love.
They tell me
That I am in love with you.
Am I? I wondered.
How do I know?
What is love?
Is this love?
Is it truly love?
Or am I in love
With the idea of being in love?
Your face fades away.
It had been a mirage after all.
A face in the water…
As real as can be,
Till it is destroyed
By the passing wind
Blowing across.
-----------------------------------------------------------
Hazel out
@ |Friday, June 24, 2005|
